That is not the point here. I am writing this for a good friend whom I met recently. She is in pain and as human as I am, I know how much it hurts to fall out of love. And worse than that forcing you to fall out of love.
There are two ways that love can effect. One, the best, falling IN love. Greatest feeling methinks. It makes you feel invulnerable of all other emotions. Yes you can fight anything even your own feelings. No wonder they say love is blind. You just close all your other senses and give room to love. Yeah Love is pretty big. Its pretty big and pretty selfish takes everything about you. Still Its the best feeling ever. No one can deny that. It is the best feeling and some of us are indeed lucky enough to receive the same from the other half. And some of us don’t.
Then those of us who have met the wrong person, are forced to open our eyes to the dark side. The ugly side. Falling OUT of life. This is even harder, methinks. As love have chased all your other emotions, just so it can take place, all you are left with a body that is painful and nothing inside. The feeling of numbness. The feeling of pain shake away all the sense in you. You are nothing but a puppet. You are controlled by strings that belongs to the past. The strings of memories cuts deep into you and control your bones your arms your legs, lever, eyes, mouth, heart and everything about you. Those strings pulls you back to the past, making it harder to move on, forward. And every second pass by you feel that you are still in love with that person and wonders, may be they feel the same way too. This curiosity kills you inside. Still all left is silence and your heart have stopped the beating that you are so used to. Yes it really does hurt.
Then some of us move on. Realize that its not worth hurting yourself. Besides there are more out there. Waiting to hurt you again or waiting to love you, surely. They are waiting and when the time come right you will meet him/her.
Besides life is a journey. The best part is you can’t sleep off this journey. It makes you do things. Good and bad. Stupid and crazy and once in a while smart things. Then many a time we complain “Wow life is not fair”. But is it? Life is only a base. We make it happen and we make mistakes and learn the best way for us. We learn and specialize. So we met the wrong person. We got thrown and beaten up. Get ourselves Molded and polished so that we fix perfectly and shines brightly for the right one who we are bound to meet (or met). At that moment you realize how all those who I loved before were actually blessing in disguise.
So this is for you… and you know who you are.. :D so smile now it will be all okay.
P.S.There you go my 200th post is dangerously emotional. Who is to be blamed? Or who is to be praised? and no I didn’t have many boyfriends and I read a lot of classic novels… and I do smile a lot.